So I thought I'd try one last time to make contact with my father. I decided to call his house and see if he'd even initially pick up the phone. I tried from B's phone because I was afraid that my mom's name would appear on the caller ID. It might have made a difference if he saw her name rather than mine. Anyway, he picked up, and my initial statement was 'Hi, are you willing to talk to me?' We progressed from there and caught up on the past couple of years that we've missed. I still recognize his weakness in confrontation and the fact that I'll probably never get my questions answered. He is not one for confrontation, and I guess I'm willing to overlook this trait now and move on. As much I as would like to inquire why he can't react when he knows he is in the wrong, I can leave it be and just accept that part of my relationship. I don't want to regret years from now that I never tried to make this work. So, here's to accepting the things I cannot change. I at least have formed some sort of communication so that I'll have the ability to see one of my younger sisters, and new baby brother within the year. That certainly was a huge concern was maintaining contact with my siblings. I have no reason to be angry with any of them, so I'd to get to know each one and see them whenever I have the opportunity.

The end of the semester is drawing closer and I'm more than excited for it to arrive. As much as I have enjoyed my classes this semester, I am through with homework and studying for exams. Reading books that are for school, not pleasure. I'm ready for the break, because it brings me even closer to my motorcycle trip in September and my 22nd birthday. What a way to spend it... riding around the four corners. First, it was Las Vegas for the 21st birthday, now a trip out west on a motorcycle. Indeed... so far, the 20s are working out quite nicely for me.

Off to class.

Au revoir.

-Tko

Consider this a survey day. It's for those moments when I can't decide what it is I want to write about. Perhaps a starting point...

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Where did you first hear the joke about what "two banana peels" are? I haven't heard that joke.

Is there any book you can read over and over again without ever getting sick of it? Do you discover something new every time you read it? Either Murder for Her Majesty by Beth Hilgartner or the Harry Potter series. After watching the films for Harry Potter, going back to read always reminds me of how many differences there are.

Do you prefers cats or dogs? Why? Would you consider a roommate or partner who felt the opposite? I've had both, but I prefer a dog. Luckily, my partner agrees.

Each decade has had a label, so what kind of label would you give this past decade? The technology decade.

Have you ever changed your opinion on something because of a boyfriend's/girlfriend's love of it? I don't believe so, unless there was a convincing argument to back it up.

Do you have your own "sanctuary"? If not, how do imagine your own "sanctuary"? There is tree near where I live and it has perfect limbs to climb up on. It is downtown, so when I'm up in the tree, no one can see me. It's nice to still be among the excitement of the city, but feel secluded at the same time.

How and when did you come to your current decision on whether or not to have children? I can't remember when exactly I made the decision to not have children, but it stemmed from my own selfishness in wanting to explore the world. I have too much that I'd like to accomplish in life and would not want to have a child if my heart is not fully into the idea. 

Do manners matter to you? Do they matter more at the dinner table? I wouldn't say that I'm completely anal about manners, but I do believe there is common sense of respect that everyone should have.

If the interior discussion in your head were indexed by category, what would the five most recurring subjects be? 1- School 2- Money 3- My Dad 4- Insecurities I wish to conquer 5- Travel

Are you good at playing trivia games? Is there a certain trivia topic at which you're better than other topics? I think I could be. I know a lot of random information, but no topic in particular.

Have you been through that very common phase (if you are not British) where you are obsessed with everything British? Yes.

Are you the type to yawn when others yawn or when you hear a yawn or when you read the word yawn a lot? Yes.

Do your parents tell you any interesting stories about their childhood? If so, care to share one? Sometimes. I guess the road trips between California and Tennessee were ones I heard of most often. I can't remember details though, it has been awhile.

How are you most likely to act at a party? Is it how you would act in a normal environment? It depends. Sometimes I do get nervous in large crowds. Derby girl part I was nervous because I wasn't familiar with everyone. Toga party with friends I was able to converse more because I knew those around me.

Do you believe that a higher power controls our fate or that we choose our own destinies? Do you tend to judge people negatively when they feel different than you do about this? I believe we choose our own destinies. Life is based on choices we make. Our future can be altered if we so choose, and no, I wouldn't judge anyone for their beliefs. We all have a right to believe in what we want.

If someone wanted to get hooked on your favourite TV show, which episode would you recommend to them? Err, that's a tough question. Family Guy/South Park has plenty of great episodes.

When you think of video games you played as a kid, what is the first one to come to mind? Do you still enjoy it? Either Sonic the Hedgehog or NBA Jam. I would definitely still play both if I had the opportunity.

Do you know anyone who takes a good-natured joke too far? Have you ever gotten offended by one of these jokes? Considering I, too, have been guilty of this, I couldn't be offended by someone else. I guess the one time that the discussion of my bf's sexuality was up for questioning by Kellie irked me a bit. She took it too far. But, in the end, it wasn't a huge deal.

Have you ever had someone much older than you make a move on you? How did you react, or how would you react if it were to happen? Considering my past 3 involvements were with me at least 17 years older, this question is moot. I never considered age an issue. If I was attracted to the personality or physically, then that is all that mattered.

At what time of the day do you eat the most? As small as I am, I am somehow hungry nearly all day. Perhaps it is the high metabolism.

If you could eliminate one emotion (anxiety, sadness, jealousy, regret, etc.), would you do it? Why or why not? If so, which one would you choose? I would do it without a doubt, and the emotion I would eliminate is my shyness. I suppose that counts. It all boils down to a sort of anxiety I believe.

Does winning an Oscar make you think more or less of that actor/actress? Why? Not all great actors/actresses get an award in which they deserve, so no.

Do you get more frightened by animals that live underwater or on dry land? Err, I'm not fond of insectsor poisonous bugs like spiders, scorpions, etc. Underwater creatures I don't come into much contact with.

What does someone need to say to you to really get you angry? When was the last time someone said this to you? Insulting a friend. A friend's recent birthday, she decided to be immature and insult a mutal friend of mine and Kit's. It was disrespectful and not necessary for it to even be mentioned. I am loyal and more than willing to defend someone I like or care about.

How often do you listen to CDs? What makes you choose CDs over mp3s or vice versa? Not that often. Most music I listen to right now is on my ipod, but there is occasional desire to hear music I haven't put on my ipod.

Do you have a passport? If so, how often do you use it, and what do you think of your photo? I have not been fortunate enough to travel out of the country. I'm hoping I'll be able too when I graduate from college. I'll have to considering I'm moving out of the country once I graduate.

Do you believe there is other intelligent life in distant galaxies? If no, why not? If yes, do you believe this is something to be feared and avoided or actively sought out? I can't really give an answer to this. I would hope that we are not the only ones in the universe, but I can't say I believe it without a doubt.

Have you ever told a member of your family that you wanted them out of your life? If so, why? Yes, my father. He didn't seem to want to be a part of my life so I left a message on his answering machine telling him that he could selfish and to go fuck himself. It was immature, but considering he already hadn't been a part of my life for 15 years, then scarcely contacting me after meeting, I was hurt. So, I said screw it and left the situation completely.

Are you more likely to be influenced by people you know personally or people you don't, like celebrities and musicians? It could both people I know personally and musicians. I'm in love with many forms of music and sometimes take lyrics to heart. I write poetry and believe strongly in the power of words. So it could both ways.

Do you enjoy taking time to study things very closely? Would you ever consider a career in which you would have to do this? Of course. I love noticing all of the little details in the world around me. I'm an observer. I don't know if I would make it a career, because I like it being a small, significant part of who I am. It remains personal and a career could turn into something very impersonal or take the joy out of it.

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How long did/does it usually take for you to find Waldo? A few seconds.

Are you satisfied with the way you've been raised? Yes, my mom did a great job.

How good is your concentration? Err, I can be easily distracted. I have sit myself in a secluded spot such as a library in order to really concentrate. Even then, I can get distracted.

When you eat a popsicle, do you split the halves, or eat it altogether? Altogether baby.

Can you speak a lot of French? I'm in French 101... un peu.

Is there a sound that sends chills up your spine every time you hear it? Not off the top of my head.

What do you think makes someone the "biggest fan" of a band/artist? The crazy obssessed ones.

Do you often lose track of the date? I have been known too.

How is your relationship with your father? We haven't talked in years.

Where do you usually upload all your photos? Some program on my computer.

Do you have accounts on any other blogging sites? I don't suppose facebook counts.

What kind of survey was the one you took before this? random.

Imagine you're able to design your own house from scratch. What would it look like and where would it be? I'm into modern or gothic architecture. As far as location, right now Australia would be nice.

How old were you when your parents started allowing you to dress yourself? I have no idea.

Are you often jealous of other people? Not particularly. I'm happy with who I am and my life. More money would be nice.

Is there someone you know who plays bingo a lot? Old people.

What is your favourite list from Listverse.com? I've never been there, probably will now.

Do you know how old your mom was when she lost her virginity? I'm good on that topic... not necessary to know.

So, what is your house? Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw or Slytherin? Slytherin bitch.

Who is the smartest person you know? My mom or B.

Do you find questions about rape and death rather insensitive? It is a sensitive subject, but in order to learn, we must ask questions.

Did you have a typical dream job as a child (e.g., teacher, vet, astronaut, etc...)? I wanted to be a music producer.

Which urban legend is your favourite? Not sure on that one.. I'll have to think about it.

Are any of your fears completely irrational? I won't eat or drink after my boyfriend, yet we've "shared" everything else.

Where is the light switch in your room? by the stairs.

Do you own any clocks that chime on the hour? No. My great-grandparents had one, and that would be the only time I tolerated them.

Approximately how many weddings have you been to in your lifetime? 1

Have you watch any good horror/thriller movies lately? Not that I remember.

What did you think of the last movie you watched? Inglourious Basterds.

Do you have a hard time believing in things? Depends on the subject matter.

How often do you download/buy new music? Not that often.

Would you make a good lawyer? Doubt it. Sometimes I have a strong opinion but not always sure how to convey it or to persuade someone to my side.

Why did your family decide to live where you're living now? Better opportunities.

Do you watch the Disney Channel? Why or why not? I did when I was younger. The shows on there suck now.

Is there an interesting view from your bedroom window? No window in the bedroom. It's a small loft, so only two at the front.

When was the last time you listened to a love song? Last Saturday.

If Itchy & Scratchy (from The Simpsons) was a real TV show, would you watch it? Hell yeah.

Do you get your Xanga layouts from the same site? No.

Out of the people you're subscribed to, who usually takes the most surveys? At this point me.

Would you rather cook dinner or bake desserts for Christmas? Why not both?

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